The Birthday party circuit ~ It's cut throat!

It's no secret I lost friends over the split and that's cool

It gave me perspective and energy to nurture the friendships I still have.

What I didn't realise, was that to some I would still be classed as a "friend" but only very rarely...

A fb comment or like here a text message there.

The thing that hurts is the physical friendship was lost.

The catch ups and most recently the birthday parties.

My boys were not invited to a few parties and even with no explanation (which would have been nice)

I understand why

you know the whole mutual friend thing who I am no longer friends with etc etc

Well I can only hope that's what the reason was... maybe they just don't like me or my boys anymore?

But all I can think is did these people think that low of that they thought I could'nt co-exist in the same breathing space as another?

I'm not upset that I was forgotten but more so my boys

They are being punished for something that has absolutly nothing to do with them

And we all know what a mother is like when her children are hurt wether they know they've been hurt or not.

All I want for my kids is to be included I don't want them to go through the same pain I have

I don't want them to feel that they aren't good enough.

With master J already being vastly differnt to alot of other kids I am already on an uphill battle,

I thought we had maybe found a place where he was understood and would be accepted always regardless of any indifferences.

Turns out we weren't.

I completely understand when my boys reach school age they won't be invited to every party

Gosh I wouldn't want that anyway

But when you think you are apart of a group where your kids are included and their kids are included regardless of who you do and don't get along with

It is quite an eye opener when they show how they really must feel.

Sadly it all seems to be behind my back.

Yes they are still being nice to my face or should I say my FB profile and my iPhone.

They may or may not read this I'm not too fussed

The only thing I want to say if they do read this is I am not bitching I am not seeing red angry

I am venting.

I am hurt.

Because my boys were hurt

Yeah ok they won't ever know as they are too young

but I know and I won't ever forget the pain that I feel for them.

And maybe I should have said something to them personally... but why? when clearly there is nothing left in these friendships to salvage.

Luckily for my special little man J he has made some little friends at daycare and kindy as well as some of my other friends and his 4th birthday will be a small but fun party for him regardless of others.

As for Lil C?

well his 2nd birthday will be a much smaller affair but thats ok we'll make it extra special.

 

Who knew the birthday party circuit could be so nasty!

Have you ever experienced something like this? How would you handle this? or How did you handle it?

Friendship & My Turning Point

About a month ago I reached a point where I felt a change in myself.

For weeks I had been struggling to find my happy place again

It was affecting everything but more then anything It was affecting how I was with my kids.

I wanted to get back to being the mum I aim to be but I was struggling

How could I be that mum when I wasn't happy in myself.

Alot of friends turned their backs on me after the seperation

and that made things even worse.

All I kept asking myself was how could they not understand that I wasn't the person I was a few weeks before it happened.

Amongst the pain, confusion and tears 2 ladies stood by me

Never not understanding

Never trying to make me feel anything then what I needed to feel

Never trying to push me into being "better"

Lauren and Em

my angels

The 2 girls who waitied and watched but never walked away as I went through the motions

Who listened to me bitch and moan

Watched me make mistakes but never judged

Who gave me endless amounts of compassion and advice
Who were always just a text message away no matter the time of day or night.

These girls mean the world to me

they both live interstate and both have their own hectic lives

I've only met Lauren once and Never met Em

but you wouldn't know it

Our friendship is amazing and special

and I would be lost without them

If it wasn't for these 2 girls

I wouldn't have reached my turning point when I did
I would still be an emotional mess.

How many of you use the phrase

"tomorrow is a new day"

Now how many of you say it and actually mean it?

I know I use to say it all the time but never actually meant it

yeah tomorrow was a new day but not in the way where yesterdays problems were actually that, yesterdays problems

Until a month ago

Until the support and love from my angels actually came into play

I said that phrase one more time

"tomorrow is a new day"

and I actually meant it

I felt it inside me

I truly believed that tomorrow was my chance to wak eup and start a fresh
Tomorrow was for the taking
Tomorrow could be whatever I wanted to make it without that days issues affecting it.

From that day on things felt differnt

I felt happy and confident

The biggest thing was..

I knew I was finally back on track.

Of course days are still going to be hard, thats just life

I've had 2 of those days already this week

But you know what?

Tomorrow is a new day

The things i know

I thought i would jump in head first and join in Yay For Homes 

Master J is 3 today

action shot playing with bubbles

and has come so far with his speech development

To the point every time he sees something that resembles a cake or a decoration he asks

"for my party mum?"

That throwing a party for Master J is an awesome idea

Kids love parties

but deciding to hand make all the decorations to match the theme is not so cool

when you can only work on them at night

and that the ink will always run out just before you finish printing the last of the decorations!

That Lil C

will smile through everything and i mean everything!

Bad nappy rash, teething, a yucky cold

He just flashes that gummy smile and It makes me feel less like a bad mumma

gummy smiles

That Toy Story is a winner in helping with quiet time

and a very good substitute for the 2nd scratched up Cars DVD.

yes he watches it that much we are on our 2nd one siiigh

Trust is easily broken, and if you talk behind someones back

they will always find out one way or another.

That you find amazing friends in unexpected places

and friends that are no longer can put differnces aside, well kind of for the sake of the children.

For every negative there will be a positive around the corner.

What things do you know?



I am Grateful for...

...Friends

Near and far

Things have been rough the past few months so much has happened

there has been doors closed but new ones opened.

But i am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason

wether it be bad or good, it was just meant to be.

The ones that follow have an impact on my life everyday,

and i am so blessed to know every single one of them.

I have a gorgeous mumma in Tassie

we speak every day and work together with our FB buiness's

She has been one of a few amazing mentors

I hope one day we can meet and that our friendship does nothing but blossom and grow.

5 gorgeous girls with their beautiful children

We have catch ups regularly for playdates and mummy gossip.

3 of which i speak to on a daily basis and have helped me through one of my toughest momments recently, and i could not be more grateful for that.

However each and everyone of these 5 girls has helped me in some way

wether they realise it or not.

But i want them to know i appreciate their friendship, more then words could ever express.

2 wonderful young ladies

We have rekindled our friendships after a few months of not talking

I can honestly say i am extremely grateful to be given a second chance

They were always a huge part of my life and i am very thankful to be apart of their lives again.

Bloggy Friends

Blogging has opened many doors for me none more important then the friendship one

So many of my lovely fellow bloggers and readers i interact with regulalry

And as i gain more exposeure and interaction

I just know some of these friendships will grow

We may only talk through our comments, blogs or FB pages but that in itself is sometimes all we need.

And of course it may eventuate into face to face meet and greets and lifelong friendship

Only time and blogging will tell ;)

and lastly but certainly not least

My Mumma friends!

All the girls from the good Ol Days of Myspace

Or from Primary/High School

They all mean the world to me

We can talk about anything with each other,

children, relationships just "stuff"

and nothing feels better then knowing you have the friendship and support behind you

of people who go through the exact same things as you.

Really when it comes down to it

I have some amazing people in my life.

Some have been there from the very start others have just walked into my life

But each and everyone of them are here for a reason.

I am Grateful that they love me for me and are here for me whenever i may need them

as i am there for them.

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out"

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